I'm reading a book called "Change Your Brain, Change Your life". It is directed to people like me who suffer from depression, but can be helpful to almost anyone who goes through life thinking why me? Or what's wrong with me?
So, with an eye towards Changing my brain I took tomorrow off work. I'm going to do whatever I want tomorrow including bake a 6 layer chocolate cake for myself (I plan to share with my family and kids). I will probably end up hanging around my house, alone, doing laundry or cleaning out that closet that bugs me or cleaning out Nicolas' room for back to school. That may not sound like a very exciting birthday and it really isn't. But at this point in my life there aren't going to be surprise dinners out, or trips to Paris or even a cake I don't make myself. But that's okay. I chose this path I'm headed down in my life. It may be quite mundane but I chose it, I'm on it and I can't wait to see where time on this path will lead me in my life. One thing I know for sure, its better than the path I've been on for the last 15 years with Jim. This path has already lead me places I've always wanted to go: closer to Heavenly Father, closer to my kids, a fully active, commandment and covenant keeping member of the church. That's definitely a step in the right direction.
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